Im on a

DIE with a capital T.

I keep on struggling not to gain weight but the more i do it, the more frustrated I become. Sometimes, like tonight, i love to indulge in anything sweet..chocolate, cacao, cake, ice cream and I end up feeling like Augustus Gloop. I hate it after. Suffering for vanity. Beauty and weight is so Overrated!!!

I dont think im not disciplined enough. Im having depression and anxiety problem because of this. I dont want to hate my body but people around me keeps on making me cringe with what they're saying. I am not fat. I embrace who I am. I am healthy. Why doesn't my black blouse fit anymore?...huhuhu

I am still positive with the way i look. People like Hanzel and Hanzel and Hanzel keeps me going everyday and letting me believe that i am not fat. False Assurance? I dont think so.

The next time i look in the mirror and see those curves,my sarap pisilin butt, I will smile at what i see. I still have fans that looks at me at tells me flattering things. So, i still have that charm and i am still BeaUtiFuL.

Ok sing it with me, I am beautiful in every single way. Words dont bring me down. So dont you bring me down today.

Why!! Why!! Why!!

Pikon talaga ako lastnight. I went online to check who was fired on the last episode of The Apprentice 3 and I was dumbfounded when I saw who WON, I saw who would be Donald Trump's Apprentice, and there is an ongoing Apprentice 4. Thats why i wasnt able to relate on the articles written about the cast. Grrrr. Imagine, im watching a rerun on Star Channel ( i tought cable was updated). Worst part is that Hanzel said " i told you so". So now i need to convince myself on why I still need to watch the show. I somehow lost interest. Konti lang. =)

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The Amazing Race Family Edition will be on Wednesday. I promise myself i wont read any reviews on the net. Behave na ako. If by chance i cant watch, i will just wait for the re-run every Sunday morning or on the night itself on AXN. Such a couch potato!!!

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What happened to Pinoy Big Brother. They voted out JB so Sam has his full time on Say. So much for love triangle on JB and Say. Now it would be Chx, Sam and Say. Wait lang, heard they're suspended. Pano na to? What to do?!?


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My boss made me a Certificate and its posted on my table.
It says, Certificate of Continous Weight Improvement
awarded to Faith Marie T. Cabangon 26 September 2005.

Ang salbahe di ba? Constructive critic or Pang asar? Will i choose to be affected or to ignore it? Its a choice i have to make, up to now I dont know what to choose.

Just wondering if I would be Bride-zilla......i just wish my wedding would be simple, fun and memorable.....i dont know if im obsessed on wedding planning. My mind is so sabog.

Its raining again...bummer!!!! Not on a weekend...please lang!

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My head was spinning last night because of the Nasal Decongestant i popped when i arrived home. While i was watching the FINALE of Rockstar INXS, i ended up wishing silently that Marty should win. Why? Because im torn in choosing from MIG or J.D., my Pinoy spirit tells me that MIG should win yet my heart hopes that J.D. should be the front man. It was down to the final three.

Mig decided to sing Bohemian Rhapsody which he gave a dark twist. I think it was ok but not stellar. I have to give it to Mig. He was one of the coolest.

And then it was down to two. The remaining rockers sang with INXS. Marty was fun to watch. He was so into it. I have to say, J.D. rocked the house. Effortlessly he got the crowd going wild.
When INXS announced who their new frontman whould be i was so nervous and i did not expect that my vote would win. Yeah!!! J.D. won !!!! He is the King of Fortune (i just proclaimed him that).

Marty will join them in their world tour as their front act. Cool!!!

Presenting the new INXS....

I cant wait to go home. Im so excited to know who will be the next vocalist of INXS. Not a fan of INXS but i love the rockers contending for the title. Im rooting for my crush J.D. Fortune, hmm its his bad boy image that makes me swoon and the guy can really really perform.

I am fan of these three great Rockstars (Mig, J.D. and Suzie) and i felt sad when Suzie left. Of course, quoting Hanzel, INXS wont get a female vox. I like Suzie, she has a powerful voice and she can deliver. Too bad, i just hope there's no gender discrimination or anything. Well if she moved on, i should too.


Most popular Rockstar is MIG Ayesa...Pinoy Power baby!!! Keep those text voting going.

His a great performer but sometimes his voice falters and a crowd favorite too, ooh those abs. I want MIG to win too but there could only be one.....

MIG reminds me of my friend Gerith who is a self proclaimed Reese Witherspoon deadringer. You cant see the similarity of MIG and Reese but i can see the similarity of Gerith and MIG. Maybe its in the eyes.
I just got here and now im itching to go home and watch the FINALE of Rockstar INXS....Shucks im such a reality TV geek.

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Next blog...Pinoy Big Brother....hehehehe

One of the nicest songs this year. So cool!!! Just want to share it with you.

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Oh I Love the Sun!!!

The sun is up again after a two- day rain session the sun is up again. Im so excited I cant wait to go out and feel it sipping in my skin (oh yeah uv rays) and warming my body. It was raining for the past two days and it almost bumbed up my five days anniversary party. Good thing Hanzel got the right mind set and rubbed it all to me. I was almost to the brink of being a drama queen again.hehehe.

I will celebrate the Sun by going out of the house ( well whats new?) and appreciate the beauty around me. The happy smiles, the birds chirping, the heat near to scourging.

What i did while it was raining?

1. I ate out at Don Henrico's.
2. I went to Powerbooks.
3. I read all my pending magazines.
4. I updated my blog and read other blogs.
5. I visited all my favorite sites.
6. I slept longer.
7. I ate heavier.
8. I bathe with hot water.
9. I went to the spa.
10. I snuggled up and kissed the night and day and night away.

For whatever reason there is I am Still A Sun Godess!!!

I had fun in Cebu!!!

Thats an understatement. The happiest part of being in a place were another language dominates is sharing it with another lost soul. Im so proud of Mac, she was the excited one here. She found here way out of a no booking hotel. She paved the mall unconscoiusly calling everyone "bisaya". Hay naku!!! She's no biggot, it just slipped her mind that its not her turf.

One of the best places to go in Cebu is the Tabo-an. All the dried fish and i swear the stink will stick to you like everypart of your body. I had to change shirt and put cologne on my pants and hair just to get the stink out. It was fun because the place had all the different kinds of dried stuff you can imagine, squid (all sizes), fish tapa(say what?) and danggit and dilis. Ang dami!!!

What i bought? All the different necklace i can see. All colors and shapes i felt like im in heaven necklace on earth. I got all my native bling blings and bought home some for pasalubongs. I went to the two famous churches in Cebu and visited the famous Sto. Niño of Cebu. I tasted the pospas de Cebu and the yummy Lechon de Cebu. I went to all the place to be in Cebu, in a small place like that there are many hang out places and spend almost half day in Ayala. I keep on saying Town Center but they have another Town Center mall there and it is not Ayala but BTC, was it Bantayan?..i forgot.

What i will miss in Cebu? The food! Its yummy and cheap especially Bigby's and The Dessert Factory. The cutie Cebuano's, oh they're everywhere and the native bling blings. Of course, the experice made my bond with Mac stronger like the scent in Tabo-an and as sunny as any given noon day in Cebu.


When i go back to Cebu I want to be with Hanzy and brave together Malapascua or Bohol. Im so excited to make lakwatsya again..and again...and again...and again.

One fine day while i was waiting for that somebody. Destiny tried its luck on me and introduced me to Hanzel. Now after many laughters, happy tears, few bumps, destinations conquered and plentiful hugs and kisses I give myself a tap on the shoulder and Hanzel gazillion kisses and my continous pledge of love and commitment for the next years to come.

As any normal relationship we had our share ( or I my share) of tantrums and heartaches but Hanz was and still is very patient with me. His showing of love and attention is up until now consistent and he always treat me like a precious gem or his Queen for he is and forever will be my King. The keeper of my heart. The yin in my yang. The one who completes me.

Promises are often felt by the heart and written with love's command. I love the fact that everytime were together we always hold hands or kiss each other. We are walking PDA (Public Display of Affection) couple because im proud to have you with me.

I love you for who you are and what you do to me. Thank you for the wonderful 6 Years of togetherness. I want to grow old with you. Iloveyou.

Its freakin raining outside and all i want to do is go home. Im doomed to be stuck in this freezing cold office hopefully just for a little time. I gazed out the window and it was a down pour....ang lakas talaga. Oh and its once again my neuasance "Rainy day and Monday bruhaha". This really justifies my biased emotions on these two situations.

I left my bloggerpost at home. I was doing it on my pc and was suppose to publish it but my connection konk out on me.Bummer!!!

I just received a chismis that my friend's boyfriend is with her in Canada. Well, its not chismis its a fact coz she broadcast it on friendster.hehehe. Its good that their together again after 5 months without each other. I wonder how long can i last without seeing or being with Hanzel, creepy.

I saw this awesome donut cake on W@W. It was so colorful, looks very yummy and i wish its not that expensive.

and speaking of wedding cake....this is my favorite wedding cake look.....and the layers are in chocolate, lemon and carrot...yummy!!!!

it looks so good i might not eat it. So better settle for something not that picture perfect....might bloat myself just thinking of it.

Another tourist destination conquered last weekend. Bolinao is a sleepy village( kakaantok kasi) on the tip of the province Pangasinan in the north. It is way past Hundred Islands and the sea is at its majestic front the South China Sea.



The girls and I (Tanya, Cathy and Maita)had a blast!!! We ate whatever we want to eat. Sing to our hearts content, 5 pesos coin was very in demand and dipped in the beautiful pool of Puerto del Sol.

One can imagine how maintaining a wonderful bond of friendship with these girls can do wonders. We might have our topak sides of the day but when you sum it all up its all about Love, Acceptance and Happiness.



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next stop this weekend...Cebu with Mac