That stands for 163 days after my wedding. Of course i wouldn't mind blogging about 168 which is my favorite mall but thats a different story. There are many 1st in my life right now and part of it is spending my 1st Christmas as a wife and hopefully a mother.

So what are the things i discovered within those days:

1. Trust. Putting your trust in God who will guide the relationship and each other. Trusting your husband in his words and actions. Of course, there are no fights yet, we hardly fight even before.

2. Letting go of disappointments. In life, you just have to shrug disappointments or else you'll end up wrinkled and ugly. If you really love the person you have to accept his faults and shortcomings. Of course, my husband is still the best gem i have. He understands my weaknesses and i know even if he cant get what the freakin thing i want to do (like i want to do so many things at the same time but cant, unless i bi-locate), he just listens and patiently waits until i tell him what i really want. He listens without passing judgement which i on the other hand would comment sarcastically or just put on a long face ( blame it on hormones, haha).

3. I always go back to the reason why i fell in love with him, which did not change at all. No paki tang tao. Whatever the reason i fell in love with him 7 years ago is still the reason why i love him today.

4. I had this thing which lasted for a month, i do not recognise who i was with in bed. It seems that Hanz looks different when asleep. Dont get me wrong he doesnt look like a monster or saliva drooling man but he just looks different. Peaceful. Feminine. Soft. Of course, we had our sleep together session in the past but believe me when your married, its different. Its like, "Woah, the who is you?" Then when im back to realizing that he is the man i married i hug him or lie on half of his body (which sometimes i think he cant breathe because of this.)

5. I try my best to be as positive as i can be but when the worry bug bites me, his there to re- assure me that things would be better.

6. We decide on things together. Except sometimes when he asks me where we want to eat. Sometimes its too tiring to think where i want to eat specially when were in Southmall. Its like you'll puke due to overfamiliarity of the food choices they offer.

7. Not shouting. I cannot be the calmest wife on the planet but i try my very best not to raise my voice or be sarcastic. Its so hard but im working on it. So far i havent had any hissy fist, which is good.

I think one of the elements in having a happy marriage is learning to love the person you have everyday. Looking at him when he comes home from work so tired but smiling, happy to see you or when i go home from work, his smile and kiss welcomes me at the door, plus asks me what i want to eat so he can prepare it.

Letting each other have our own time and space. It can be going out with friends, spending time in the computer or just being alone.

I decide to stay with the man i married 163 days ago.

Labels: Being married