So its Christmas time and my husband was generous enough to take me out of the house and see the hustle and bustle of the outside world, he should or else im going bonkers!!! I miss the outside world, as if naman i leave in a shell, the people hurrying to the mall to buy presents to put under the tree or speeding their way at the grocery counter to cook their Noche Buena.

This year i spent my Christmas in bed taking care of my son, im developing a rare case of selective autism, and the constant eating to terminate the food in the ref might get me FaT, please take away the fruit salad. Mental note i dont have Roo in me anymore so there's no reason for added weight.

The usual family reunion was not held on the 25th, it will happen before New Year. There were still the text greetings i received from friends and family near and far which made me feel loved. The only thing different this year is that i didn't open any presents at all and i didn't go to Divisoria to buy gifts. That was missing. This was the 1st year in my whole existence that no gifts were given and opened for Christmas. Come to think of it, i was mature enough not to whine about it since it can really be a BiG deal for me. Like i said, the best presents i got were not wrapped in a box with ribbons on it but real live people who made my life heaven on earth. I have my husband and my baby boy and my family and friends and a stable job and God on my side...what else could i wish for?

So really, Christmas is not about the gifts ( it goes on even without the gifts, believe me i know!) or the food on the table ( i can even sleep through it even without the fruit salad) or the merry makings ( i could even pass to go to the parties) its about giving yourself fully and unconditionally to people you care about and not thinking of it as a sacrifice but as an act of love. Like the baby born in the manger did a long long time ago.

Christmas is inevitable like change so you cant stop it from coming and instilling the love to live life with everyone....So again, Merry Christmas and spread the love.

Labels: life

That stands for 163 days after my wedding. Of course i wouldn't mind blogging about 168 which is my favorite mall but thats a different story. There are many 1st in my life right now and part of it is spending my 1st Christmas as a wife and hopefully a mother.

So what are the things i discovered within those days:

1. Trust. Putting your trust in God who will guide the relationship and each other. Trusting your husband in his words and actions. Of course, there are no fights yet, we hardly fight even before.

2. Letting go of disappointments. In life, you just have to shrug disappointments or else you'll end up wrinkled and ugly. If you really love the person you have to accept his faults and shortcomings. Of course, my husband is still the best gem i have. He understands my weaknesses and i know even if he cant get what the freakin thing i want to do (like i want to do so many things at the same time but cant, unless i bi-locate), he just listens and patiently waits until i tell him what i really want. He listens without passing judgement which i on the other hand would comment sarcastically or just put on a long face ( blame it on hormones, haha).

3. I always go back to the reason why i fell in love with him, which did not change at all. No paki tang tao. Whatever the reason i fell in love with him 7 years ago is still the reason why i love him today.

4. I had this thing which lasted for a month, i do not recognise who i was with in bed. It seems that Hanz looks different when asleep. Dont get me wrong he doesnt look like a monster or saliva drooling man but he just looks different. Peaceful. Feminine. Soft. Of course, we had our sleep together session in the past but believe me when your married, its different. Its like, "Woah, the who is you?" Then when im back to realizing that he is the man i married i hug him or lie on half of his body (which sometimes i think he cant breathe because of this.)

5. I try my best to be as positive as i can be but when the worry bug bites me, his there to re- assure me that things would be better.

6. We decide on things together. Except sometimes when he asks me where we want to eat. Sometimes its too tiring to think where i want to eat specially when were in Southmall. Its like you'll puke due to overfamiliarity of the food choices they offer.

7. Not shouting. I cannot be the calmest wife on the planet but i try my very best not to raise my voice or be sarcastic. Its so hard but im working on it. So far i havent had any hissy fist, which is good.

I think one of the elements in having a happy marriage is learning to love the person you have everyday. Looking at him when he comes home from work so tired but smiling, happy to see you or when i go home from work, his smile and kiss welcomes me at the door, plus asks me what i want to eat so he can prepare it.

Letting each other have our own time and space. It can be going out with friends, spending time in the computer or just being alone.

I decide to stay with the man i married 163 days ago.

Labels: Being married

Its been a long wait and is still on going. I dont mind waiting for Roo as long as he comes out complete and healthy. So while waiting i could make my Christmas wishlist:

1. To see my babyboy RooRoo
2. Get Flu shots
3. Update my wardrobe ... one good reason to shop again!!!
4. To be a better mother and wife and daughter
5. Spa and facial .... oh how i missed getting pampered for almost 7 months
6. Ipod ... wishing for that for 2 years, it seems i have so many things in line before i could have one
7. Books books and books ...speaking of books...check out Shelfari website.
8. Good health and safety for everyone.
9. Pictures pictures and pictures
10. Peace on earth and good will to all

So while my cervix is still opening to a certain extent, im just savoring the moment of being married and having my own time and space. I know everything will change once Roo is out.

Labels: baby