I just cant believe it. Its Christmas already and I cant feel it. Im not complaining, im just getting worried.

I watched the POLAR EXPRESS and i can deeply relate to the boy in the story. I am too cynical to see the wonders believing can do. Its in believing that one grows as a person.

What would i do to experience Christmas again like a child? I couldn't see it in a child's eye. Im not TOO OLD to feel this way. Im not tainted or jaded at all. WHAT AM I TO DO???

Im stuck in the office as a slave for many apparent reasons. Im bounded by my own weaknesses. Im a freakin coward to know what's beyond but Im trying to spread my wings slowly and see my Horizon.

Maybe that's what I need:
to see Christmas as a child
to stop pestering my kid brother who I truly love
to have the guts to execute my goals in life
to believe that This can be a better place to live in....

Merry Christmas Everyone....
My wish is that we may feel and experience the real meaning of it for the rest of our life.